Almost all my big plan haven’t come true because of many things. Some because of my faults, some are not controllable. They are dreams from years ago. I guess I am tired right now and has no desire to strive anymore. Those become untouchable in my head. But times keep fly and I feel guilty to take a rest.
So I admit to God in my prayer that I’m tired. I need him to restore my faith, to give the oil in this almost burnt out lamp. Learning to trust in Him by taking my sabbath day. Rest in Him is what I need.